that's really shit!!!

The more i live the more i want to die. Nothing we can change!!!


I can't explain my condition and feelings, but understand me - i am not crazy, depressed or emo... Just tired to see that nothing is good, nothing is worth to live.

God, show me the way... show me the thing that will revive me.

danke schon

I can't stop wondering how life can be changed in a moment!!!

This Xmas, maybe, i will go to stockholm, but not alone. I want to find nice company first.
About next steps - someone from above decided to send me abroad for studies. I already applied to FH-STRALSUND in Germany, Stralsund city. SO happy i could die :D Can't really wait to start :))


Everything depends on me, so i just need to be patient and do my work hard.


Nothing is planned in this case... just a miracle that it is...

To do or not to do ???

I want to make Xmas trip, but it costs so much... Now i got some stuff to pay for, so i do not know if i can fulfil my dream !?!?!!?


My phone is broken, i need new one...
I want to buy one present for my mommy...
I need to buy some really important things for myself...
I pay for medicine to improve my health now..
I want to go to gym at least for some months...
REALLY want to have some extra money in my pocket...

But, after this all, i have no money at all + maybe little debt...
WTF can i do ???

Xmas trip

Yeah !!!
I am soooo crazy, so decided to spend my xmas+ny in Sweden and Denmark !!! I am going to visit at least Stockholm, Malmo, Copenhagen...
I am searching for cheapest tickets for two persons cause i am going to take my sister with me!

Big plans. Hope to get it all...

LOCA

Where are you?
I miss you.


I want you to hold me...
I want you to be here...
I am so cold now.
I want to feel you near...

babe, you are the one i can't live without...


but, the problem is that i do not know whom it is dedicated to.
Ever spring inside. I am totally cat.

Same shit, different day.

 10 and half days till home.
Every day i feel myself very down. Nothing is changed.

I need somebody to care of me. But it's so hard to find this person. I believe this person man... :D

I have a lot of guys around who is trying to show their feelings to me, but I do not want them to be near!
Why ???
Because I want them to achieve me !!!

They are dumb - telling some nice words, trying to pull me somehow, but when they see, that I am not so easy, they give up...
If somebody really wants to be near, he will do everything to get me!

Maybe no one really is interested in me...

my people

My friends have changes in their life, the same as I....
I felt myself broken, cause of broken hopes, and... THEY HAD THE SAME SHIT at the same time!!!
Anastasia, my dear, my soul mate broke with her bf, my lovely Julia, sometimes, has problems with her... I am totally single.

Something is really wrong in this life.
But, as one smart one said: "Learn from yesterday, live for today and hope for tomorrow"

Tomorrow would be better day. At least it would be new!