Will I ?

Could I ceased crying when you were hurting me, or it was just a nightmare...?
Could I forgive myself that you trampled me to the ground, but I did not stop loving you...?

Will I ever become adult, or I will stay as young and crazy as now... ?
Will I ever become more serious or I will stay so light-hearted... ?
Will I ever learn how it is to love myself, or I will always love someone else... ?
Will I ... ?