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I always thought about the purpose of my life. I am not a child now and I understand that there are no denotation of ''friends'' and "lovers".
Everyone should live and fight just for himself! But if so... Why should we live on this Earth if no any real sense.

Just look around, each couple tells that they are in love, but after some years they are not together anymore... why ? We were best friends but after long time we are not... anymore... Really ? Is it true ? Is it so?

Only now I understand that I have to rely only on myself !!!

Why do I need to live if each day is like other days, GREY ! If feeling are just a fake, we have no future! Either this future would be the same dead-grey.
Just think about the purpose of your life. You born, you study, you work, you get married, you have a child, this child grow up the same as you... then you die, and nothing more... Does someone change the chain of happenings? Do we need to live only like other ''normal'' people live?
I really can not find an answer. I really do not want to live like others... I want someone to help me find a path from sadness... I am so scared of becoming crazy because I do not see the purpose...