...and never will change

I would like to start with my favourite phrase ''i don't know why''...
Yes, and again i do not know why, but i found out my biggest problem of life.

Paradox, I need love, but when somebody wants to present this great feeling, i do everything not to receive it. WHY?

They are nice guys, mostly, but when they show their attitude to me, i hide mine! Not only hide, but totally close my heart to him. The last thing - I spoil everything by terminating friendship and any contact with this person.

I hurt so many people! I hurt very cute and intelligent guys!

And then I cry of loneliness...