Choice

Gosh...

Every moment you need to choose what to do next. It is like standing on the crossroad and think where to turn, which road to choose and what would be there, after some meters...

Choosing a road, you still have a choice to go far or just a little. To turn on the next cross or to move forward. To go alone or with somebody.

What would meet you there, nobody knows. The road you chose can be straight, cleaned, with nice colourful flowers by sides... or it can be complicated, dirty, and even dangerous.

In the moment of making a choice you see only a step further, but you never know what would after.

I see my path now. Yes, it is just a path. The roads are scaring me so far. My path is quite thin and bright, but I do not see future, I do not know how far I can go... 

Who should give advices? Who should lead me there?

Nobody! It is my own choice and my own responsibility, even if I afraid to death!

There is just one comment to all this - never stop or turn back, just go forward!

As Winston Churchill said "If you are going through hell, keep going."

I keep going... Wish me luck!

life

What is the price of one friendship?
We meet thousand people, we make hundred relationships, we smile, we cry, we find, we lose.... we live our life just to meet one person to be with (friends/more, doesn't matter, just to be). One? yes... real friend, who is sincerely interested in your life. Not to laugh about your faults, but to take care of you when you fall.

Only this person can walk with you on the road of life obstacles to support you! Not whining!!! Of course, this person is near not only in bad moments! To find out who is real friend you just need to be happy, and check if he is happy for you too... Sometimes it's easier to be friends in tough time, but to be truly happy for your win is really hard!

What can you give for a moment of happiness?
We can go through all difficulties to get instant of it. Is this expensive for you?

Being depressed is life norm for me now. I stumbled too much in this life. Too naive for this century. But human nature is more cruel than I usually expect...

Yes, here we go again - Friends.

"Time goes by, but friends stay." - it works, but not always.

I paid a lot in this life to realize the value of real friendship.

Thank You, God, for giving me all I had, to go through everything, to survive, to become more experienced, to understand, to learn, to feel....

Yes! To feel means a lot for me!

I love to feel pain, cause after you can compare it to happiness, and then to be much more happier. More and more...

I love to be happy, cause it's not so often... so, I must catch every happy moment and appreciate it, making a new "idol", to pray on... Yes, to pray on happy moment. To beg this moment to stay for longer...

Have you ever been "unemotional"? You know, it's when you see something beautiful, but you don't want to admire... Or to stay calm when see somebody crying...

Sometimes I am too emotional, but at least I SEE THE BEAUTY OF THE WORLD, while you discuss the latest rumours about others.

I don't care if you think I'm insignificant.

WE ALL have own universe inside, but we never wish for exploring ourself and others.... But there are so many interesting and amazing... Just dive into yourself, find something that you will love yourself for... Try to understand WHO YOU ARE, and then, look into your friends.

You think it's enough to look in the eyes to understand the person you talk with?

Noup... Dig deeper.

Sometimes people blind themselves, so even they don't know who they are...

...and never will change

I would like to start with my favourite phrase ''i don't know why''...
Yes, and again i do not know why, but i found out my biggest problem of life.

Paradox, I need love, but when somebody wants to present this great feeling, i do everything not to receive it. WHY?

They are nice guys, mostly, but when they show their attitude to me, i hide mine! Not only hide, but totally close my heart to him. The last thing - I spoil everything by terminating friendship and any contact with this person.

I hurt so many people! I hurt very cute and intelligent guys!

And then I cry of loneliness...

freedom

Where is my freedom???

I live with some thoughts that can not leave me alone.
The secret voice, so deep inside me, is singing a song of sorrow, and only sometimes, when it's silent around, I can hear this melody and sad lyrics...

Why do not I allow this voice to sing louder ?

I know that this voice knows the truth, but I am afraid that someone would hear it... would hear and change me.
My life is someone's template! I live a life that is not mine at all ! I do the things that, probably, would be better for my future...

But who knows what is better ???

I always act like my family or society wants, but I never do anything that could make me feel free! I am in a prison of public mind... I am not free...

!!!Paradox!!!

...I am afraid of getting freedom...

Life is Love

Life's a wonderful thing, as long as I'm in love with nature! The Earth's so beautiful... blue sky, bright stars, golden sun, deep water, cool rain, large forest... animals... people.... I love 'em all ! I wanna live a long life to see everything, to feel everything, to can love forever!