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I always thought about the purpose of my life. I am not a child now and I understand that there are no denotation of ''friends'' and "lovers".
Everyone should live and fight just for himself! But if so... Why should we live on this Earth if no any real sense.

Just look around, each couple tells that they are in love, but after some years they are not together anymore... why ? We were best friends but after long time we are not... anymore... Really ? Is it true ? Is it so?

Only now I understand that I have to rely only on myself !!!

Why do I need to live if each day is like other days, GREY ! If feeling are just a fake, we have no future! Either this future would be the same dead-grey.
Just think about the purpose of your life. You born, you study, you work, you get married, you have a child, this child grow up the same as you... then you die, and nothing more... Does someone change the chain of happenings? Do we need to live only like other ''normal'' people live?
I really can not find an answer. I really do not want to live like others... I want someone to help me find a path from sadness... I am so scared of becoming crazy because I do not see the purpose...

eyes

Eyes are the mirror of my soul... what do you see there?

Will I ?

Could I ceased crying when you were hurting me, or it was just a nightmare...?
Could I forgive myself that you trampled me to the ground, but I did not stop loving you...?

Will I ever become adult, or I will stay as young and crazy as now... ?
Will I ever become more serious or I will stay so light-hearted... ?
Will I ever learn how it is to love myself, or I will always love someone else... ?
Will I ... ?

Something's happen...

They've met in old town... She was looking into his eyes and he was doing the same. Something has happen between them, like an electric discharge. Yeah, it was so queer, cause she was with an other man!
They decided to go somewhere to eat together. They eat some junk food and.... Shame on her... All the time she was looking on him. His eyes were full of tenderness, and as she thought he felt the same!
After a long time she was living with a hope to meet him again, his life was as normal as usual... He works in a travel agency, so he visited many countries... But she dreamed about him.

Now she found him in the web... They chat sometimes, and reading his letters she understands that she is so mad about him....
They live in different countries and between them is so many km...Of course he can come sometimes to her (cause he works in Europe too), but it would not be enough for something more than friendship.... She is so afraid to fall in love with a man whom she does not know at all... She is as crazy as me, so I think she can buy a ticket and fly to him.

But I can not.. I am too coward :((((

my Julia Zh.

This summer is over... my good mood has gone away. I hope it would be only till the next sunny day. sometimes I want to cry and see no one!!! but why do I sit at home, here with you... because you are my friend and only with you i can feel myself better! And it does not matter what is going on in my life, you always are near !
I love you my friend... I will always be with you... Julia

What is Love?

Darling, read it and stop crying

Each person has ever asked this stupid question... of course no one knows the answer, but... Philosophers of all countries think about it and only young hearts can feel the real love. When love takes over, you can fly...
The feeling that change your mind and view of life at all... this feeling can make you strong and weak at the same time...
but only once...
if you ever had this feelings, you will never love anybody else again!
Yes, you can forget this person, and find somebody new for relationship, but fall in love again is not so easy.
You will be near, you will feel some nice feelings with this man, but that love which get you crazy is in the past.. nothing else..

Why do people want to make relationship ? for sex ? for money ? for any profits ? mhm...

A lot of people do not know how to live, cause they can not be in love with anybody now. AND IT IS LIES that the time can treat ! nothing is forgotten...nothing will be forgotten...

What is love ? what is life ?

But, please, do not be pessimist, everything is going to be all right ! Feel the rhythm of life, and you will find your way !

Your friends are near! We are..

Music is her everything!

You know, when any bastard interferes your life, only the thing you can do is to turn on some nice musical tracks and enjoy it.
My friend Helen had one guy, called Hugo, who was her bright sunshine, her dark night, her life... but he was an addict...drug addicted.
When hi died, she thought that her life is over too... but music saved her!
music and sport - it is decision !

Some weeks were left and she understood that she still can breath and looking around see others! She realized that she must stay alive and help people who need it.
Now she can not realise her life without music, cause it is this kind of psychedelics that helps !